In exactly 30 days, I’ll be turning 30 years old. I know this milestone can be emotional for some, but I’m okay with it. However, whether it’s because I’m beginning a new decade of life or because “30-something” sounds more significant than “20-something,” this birthday does seem like a turning point.
For this reason, I’ve been giving some thought to the person I am now compared to who I was when I turned 20. As is probably true for most people, I experienced many significant changes and life events in my twenties: I graduated summa cum laude from the University of Oklahoma with my Bachelor’s degree; I attended a semester of law school and made the Dean’s List; my mom died; I broke up with my high school/college boyfriend; I met my wonderful husband and we got married 6 months later; I had 2 children; my dad was diagnosed with a terminal lung disease and received a lung transplant; I completed a Master’s degree while living in a hospital; I moved approximately 15 times and lived in 7 different cities/towns (one of which was in a different state 1,200 miles away). As you can tell, if there were one word to sum up my twenties, it would be this: ch-ch-ch-ch-changes.
From these myriad life experiences, I’ve grown over the last decade. I’ve matured emotionally, I’ve gained knowledge. I hope I can claim to be wiser now than I was 10 years ago. If nothing else, I certainly have more stories to tell than I did at 20. Thus, I’d like to share the things I’d tell my 20-year-old self as I’m leaving that decade behind. My goal is to make this a daily series, but since my blogging consistency can be spotty at times, I may have to play catch up every now and then. So, without further ado, here is day one of 30 things I’d tell my 20-year-old self:
Keep Going When the Wheels Fall Off
That friend you met in Spanish class at OU, Marisa, used this phrase in her post this week about what she learned in May, and I think it expresses a common theme for the next decade of your life, Rachel. You’re going to struggle. You’re going to face heartache. You’re going to question God. You’re even going to doubt his existence for a time. You’re going to wonder why and you’re going to rage against all that you believe to be good and true. But while you do that. keep going. The wheels are going to fall off, for sure. You are going to have more than you can handle.
Press on, R. There’s beauty in the messiness that lies ahead. There are blessings to receive. You will meet so many incredible souls. Though you’ll doubt and question God, you will encounter Jesus in a deeper, more profound way that will change the trajectory of your life. You will experience. That is the greatest part that lies ahead. You have much before you. Push even when it hurts, doesn’t make sense, or seems like it’s not worth it. Keep going when the wheels fall off.